Here, lately, I have been really missing my dad! I was driving this morning and had to go into his old neighborhood to drop something off to a friend who lived in his neighborhood and just started crying. Thinking of the last time I picked him up to drop him off at the hospital and him not wanting to back to the hospital, but knowing he had to go. As I picked him up he spilled his juice that he was having with his lunch and I cleaned it up and then grabbed his suitcase and took it to the car. Not knowing that our ride together would be the last!
My dad was always there for anyone who needed him! He LOVED people! No, he was not perfect and he messed up in life quite often, but he would get back up with a smile on his face. The best part about my dad is he NEVER judged anyone! He took people at face value and loved them in spite of their faults or differences. I have tried to adapt that to my life, not that I walk around judging those around me, but I may see someone who is different than me, and I have learned to embrace that, and get to know them for who they are.
As I heard the song playing the other night in a restaurant, I just started crying. You see my dad LOVED James Taylor! I grew up listening to every song out there by this artist. As a kid I hated it, but this song in particular seems to capture my dad's motto in life. Its funny and sad listening to it now, because I wish he was around to talk to or laugh with. He had a great sense of humor! (see the song below)
So, today at THRIVE (our church's bible study) I sat there listening to sweet Marji talk about how God allows us to go through things sometimes that we do not understand while we are going through it, HE is working through it and bringing us into HIS plan. You see, I do not understand why my dad and my brother had to die, but I know God is working in my life and drawing me closer and closer to HIM.
Oh would I wouldn't give to sit on my daddy's lap again or just pick up the phone and call him or have him over for dinner. But I know he is having the time of his life and God's plan for my life is still in full swing! So I will keep his memory alive by loving others and not being so quick to judge!
Oh would I wouldn't give to sit on my daddy's lap again or just pick up the phone and call him or have him over for dinner. But I know he is having the time of his life and God's plan for my life is still in full swing! So I will keep his memory alive by loving others and not being so quick to judge!
