I always have the goal to organize the entire house and it never ends up happening. We had so much fun going to the pool, staying up late watching movies and traveling that it did not seem like a huge priority to me. I figured it would wait for me!
As we traveled quite a bit this summer I felt I was slowly losing my fears that I normally would have. We went to St. John and that requires riding a plane to St. Thomas and then taking a tiny boat that the max people to fit on the boat was 55 with the man telling us to "make ourselves smaller" to fit another 55 on the boat for a 40 minute ride to the island. I just sat there and prayed that first we would not sink and second that I would be able to grab my children and learn to swim a good mile or two to get to land. We made it to shore and had a wonderful time thanks to our neighbors that we went with and their timeshare that they so graciously shared with us for the week.
So I wanted to update my blog and let you know how my year without fear is going....so here it is in a nutshell..... elevators, no big deal anymore, planes....still not a huge fan but no panicking when the plane is taking off and I am having a stare down contest with the stewardess trying to read her face for a trouble sign! Being alone....this was a big one for me and now I feel I sometimes prefer to be by myself, especially when I am venturing out in a new city to find a target :). Fear of failing at things....not so much a problem anymore, if I fail I like trying to figure out a way to make it work instead. Fear of speaking to people I don't know.....now I try to go out of my way to find people and know their story...in January starts a new blog for this one!
I even took a new job at a new school where I only really knew one sweet friend before I entered the door. As I was anxious about this job, God kept telling me to trust Him and things have come together so easily. I feel now that my life is so much more free to not worry or stress and I can be myself.
As the summer comes to a close I have some new goals for the upcoming school year.....
- To not take on more volunteer jobs than I can possibly juggle.
- To really make my husband and kids a top priority and not let other things that I think are worthy things to do get in the way.
- To give 110% of myself in the things that I do commit to.
- To memorize scripture and lots of it.
- To stop and enjoy the moments in life and don't rush through everything!
As I look at the picture above I think how God created this world for us to enjoy and yet sometimes we let life happen around us and not take the time to notice what is truly around us.